Two weeks ago, I had a melt down at the shop.
Just this week, I had another melt down again.
I really wanted to give up, I really have no idea how much longer I can handle.
My mother had to cross the line again, making me really really upset with her.
As much as my dad is trying to salvage the situation, I have come to a point where I'm at loss of what to do; it feels like world has just ended.
I feel myself in a whirpool of everything that I can't put to words.
That night I cried very hard, I never cried this hard before till my heart was in so much pain.
Not that kind of pain where I needed to be admitted to the hospital, its a heart broken pain I'm experiencing.
I cried till I feel my body went numb and my body was shaking so much that I thought I was really going to pass out.
I am already giving my 100% effort, but why do I feel that putting 100% is not going to be enough?
I am feeling worn out, feeling tired enough.
It's Saturday and I'm gotta start baking later.
I can't help but to think why is everything going so badly with my mum?
***
SZ's brother went Macau and brought home my favorite egg tart.
My prized cookies :)
At NSRCC before leauge, I found my all time faovrite game still alive!
This is the only game I'm proud of because I trash SZ flat all the time.
New flavor at the shop!
Cotton Candy ice cream from Baskin Robbins = my number one choice!
Random cats I met this week.
Very long ago at IKEA!
Just this week, I had another melt down again.
I really wanted to give up, I really have no idea how much longer I can handle.
My mother had to cross the line again, making me really really upset with her.
As much as my dad is trying to salvage the situation, I have come to a point where I'm at loss of what to do; it feels like world has just ended.
I feel myself in a whirpool of everything that I can't put to words.
That night I cried very hard, I never cried this hard before till my heart was in so much pain.
Not that kind of pain where I needed to be admitted to the hospital, its a heart broken pain I'm experiencing.
I cried till I feel my body went numb and my body was shaking so much that I thought I was really going to pass out.
I am already giving my 100% effort, but why do I feel that putting 100% is not going to be enough?
I am feeling worn out, feeling tired enough.
It's Saturday and I'm gotta start baking later.
I can't help but to think why is everything going so badly with my mum?
***
SZ's brother went Macau and brought home my favorite egg tart.
My prized cookies :)
At NSRCC before leauge, I found my all time faovrite game still alive!
This is the only game I'm proud of because I trash SZ flat all the time.
New flavor at the shop!
Cotton Candy ice cream from Baskin Robbins = my number one choice!
Random cats I met this week.
Very long ago at IKEA!
1 Comments:
Hey Amanda,
Celia here :) I feel you about your relationship with your mum. I'm an only child, I have no choice but to go through it alone with my dad. Always remember, she's your mum. Regardless how mad you are with her, you still have to tolerate, just like how she tolerated us when we were babies.
I heard from QZ about your shop. Hang on. I do not believe in giving up. I'm sure you have a reason when you started this business. Make things happen. Don't give up. Bitterness now, sweetness later. No one's a failure unless one gives up.
Let us know if you need any help or pointers. QZ and myself will always be available to help.
Accept criticisms and feedbacks. You may not like what you hear. No one is perfect. It is only these truthful facts that make you better person.
Take care girl :)
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